I’ll Become a Villainess That Will Go Down in History

Duke-sama’s clear blue eyes reflected my somewhat tired expression.

 

When he stared at me, I couldn’t help but want to look away.
I couldn’t respond well to his straightforward eyes.

 

It was hard for me to suddenly look directly at this beauty with both eyes…

 

I should force my eyes to go bad and keep blurring my vision.
In fact, that might be better for my eyes.

 

I should have been thinking of such a foolish thing, but I couldn’t erase the emptiness that had left a gaping hole in my heart.

 

I kept feeling as if something was missing in me.

 

“Uncle…”

 

“…Yes.
…may he rest in peace.”

 

I backed away from Duke-sama a little and slowly bowed my head.

 

Uncle Will and I were not related in any way.
He was royalty from birth to death, an important person born to lead this country.
He was different from me.

 

I could only bow down to Uncle Will and his kin, Duke-sama.

 

I felt like I was in a position where I was not even allowed to cry for him.
I was sure Duke-sama would deny it if I told him.

 

Still, with my ego, I gave Uncle Will the hope of continuing to live.
And he gave his life for me.

 

It was true that I exploited Royalty…and Duke-sama’s uncle for my dream.

 

I did not know what expression was on Duke-sama’s face.

 

I just know that he was not angry.
Still, I couldn’t look up because of my regret.

 

“I’m sorry.”

 

I muttered.
I apologized to him from the bottom of my heart.

 

An apology that was probably unnecessary from Duke-sama’s point of view, but…

 

After a pause, I heard Duke-sama’s voice.

 

“Why is Alicia apologizing?”

 

“…I used Uncle Will to make my dream come true.
Maybe Uncle Will’s death was hastened for my own happiness.
…I don’t know if there is a cause and effect relationship there, but I still couldn’t put closure on my feelings.”

 

I knew what I was saying was absurd.

 

I was sure I was not thinking straight at the moment.
…I should not be interacting with Duke-sama in such a state.

 

An apology from someone who felt guilty might be just too depressing.

 

“It was none other than Alicia who made my Uncle happy once again.”

 

The sweet, gentle words echoed in my exhausted brain.
I lifted my head and looked at Duke-sama.

 

He looked somewhat longing.

 

“You don’t want to rely on me to any extent, do you?”

 

I didn’t mean to give him this look.
I just…

 

“Because that’s who I am.”

 

I put on my new mask, and my voice was cold, along with my expressionless face.