Copy of Resentment

ew.” Lu Shen looked at the time.
“We can only find a hotel to make do with the night.”

“Well.” Bian Shengjian massaged his temples hard, “I thought you were going to fight me again.”

“What?” Lu Shen was stunned.

“Didn’t you wait for me when I came back past curfew last time? I don’t know.
I just thought that this broken school was opened by your father.” Bian Shengjian’s expression was a little dark under the streetlamp, and his tone was also low.

“…it was different.” Lu Shen was silent for a while and said, “If one missed the access control, it’s advisable to not go back and attempt to climb the walls.”

“Don’t you miss your home?”

Bian Shengjian glanced around and noticed that the streets were full of all kinds of simple lodgings that a steady stream of people kept coming in and out.
There was a narrow staircase leading to the top floor.
After dark, only a dim yellow light could be seen through the window which was setting an atmosphere for a murder scene.

“That one, it’s the best hotel nearby.” Lu Shen pointed to a glowing neon sign in front of them.

Although the place looked like a dubious hotel where people would stuff all kinds of small cards in the cracks of the door, it was getting late and his head hurts.
Bian Shengjian hesitated at first but could only push the door with Lu Shen to enter inside.

“One?” The woman at the front desk didn’t even raise her head when she heard the door open, but still lowered her head and continued to tap on her phone with her pointy fingernails.
“How long?”

“Two.” Bian Shengjian gave her a glance, “Just for one night.”

“Oh.” 

The woman raised her head quickly and swept a glance at his face and Lu Shen who was standing aside.
“You two together?”

“No so two rooms please.” Bian Shengjian said.

“There’s only one room left.” The woman continued to poke her phone with her head down.

“What?” Bian Shengjian stared at her, “You’re saying there is only one room available left?”

“Anyhow, there is only one room, with a double bed, do you want it?” The woman knocked on the table a few times impatiently, “If you don’t want it, then just leave.”

“Isn’t there a room with two beds?” Bian Shengjian was a little annoyed and raised his voice.
“A suite is also fine, I’m not short of money.”

 “A suite?” The woman paused, her eyes suddenly becoming ambiguous, “There is still one couple’s suite left, do you want it?”

Without waiting for Shengjian to speak, the woman began to introduce all kinds of equipment in their couple’s suite, from free condoms to all kinds of novel toys.
Hearing all these made Shengjian’s brain buzzing.
“…just give me the room with the double bed.”

“Then you should’ve said it earlier!” The woman glared at him as if complaining that he wasted her eloquent words.
“If you don’t have money, just say so.
Why pretend to be rich in front of this old lady!? The room fee is 200 and the deposit of 50!”

“Here, 300.
Keep the change.” Bian Shengjian held back his irritation, slapped the money on the table, almost rudely snatched the card key from the woman’s hand.
He turned his head and walked in the direction of the elevator.

“Third brother!” Lu Shen chased after him, “It’s all trivial matters, don’t be angry.”

“You.
Go and buy some medicine for me.” Bian Shengjian stopped and rubbed his forehead with his hand, “I’ll pay you back later.”

“Okay.” Lu Shen looked at him with a worried look, “Would you like to drink some honeyed water? To ease your hangover.”

“Where would you get it at this time,” Bian Shengjian waved his hand impatiently, “Just buy some ibuprofen, go quickly.
“

Lu Shen nodded and walked towards the door.
Bian Shengjian stared at his back for a few seconds before turning to the elevator.
After stepping through their room’s door, he frowned and observed the room first.
He checked the bedside table, the bottom of the bed, and the bathroom carefully.
Fortunately, he didn’t find anything strange.
After looking around twice, he sat down on a chair next to him.

“I’m so tired.” He whispered, as if afraid of being heard.

When Lu Shen came back from buying the medicine, Shengjian had already taken a bath and was laying on the bed.
Hearing the locked door knob being twisted, he stood up vigilantly, “Who is it!?”

“It’s me.” Lu Shen said outside the door.

Bian Shengjian was stunned for a moment before slowly getting out of bed to open the door for him.
Lu Shen was also a little stunned when he saw Shenjian come out wearing only his boxers.
“…here, your medicine.”

“What are you looking at? Don’t you have what I have?” Bian Shengjian gave him a sidelong glance, opened the water, and took the medicine.

“You have a good figure.” Lu Shen said.

“Go and take a shower,” Bian Shengjian pointed to the bathroom.
“Also, take off your pants when you sleep.
Or else, I won’t let you sleep on the bed tonight.”

Hearing the sound of Lu Shen taking a bath, Bian Shengjian laid back on the bed and closed his eyes, trying to empty his mind to quickly fall asleep but he failed several times.
What Zhou Li said to him still kept ringing in his mind, like the buzzing mosquitoes on a summer night.

“Shit.” Bian Shengjian cursed.

The sound of the water in the bathroom had stopped.
Lu Shen carefully opened the door and came out.
His feet were light on the ground, hardly making any noise as if he was afraid of waking Bian Shengjian up.
When Bian Shengjian felt a slight dip from the other side of the mattress, he suddenly opened his eyes.
“Damn it!”

“…I thought you were already asleep.” Lu Shen remarked, staying still in a position where he was about to lay on the bed.

“Turn off the light.” Bian Shengjian glared at him and didn’t speak again.
He covered his body with the quilt and turned his back to Lu Shen.

The room turned dark, and only a little bit of moonlight was scattered on the ground through the curtains.

Bian Shengjian was not used to sleeping in the same bed with others.
Moreover, he came out to the person next to him for no apparent reason.
This uncomfortable feeling only became stronger, and he couldn’t help turning over several times in the ten minutes after the lights were turned off.

“Can’t sleep?” Lu Shen asked softly in the silence.

“Already fell asleep.” Bian Shengjian said.

“You were squirming and tossing.” Lu Shen turned his head slightly to look at him.

“Mind your own business.” Bian Shengjian sighed.

“I…” Lu Shen hesitated, looking at the distance between the two of them where a third person could’ve laid between them, and said slowly.
“I don’t mind if you like men, just lean over a little, be careful of catching a cold.”

“Where do you think I would have that kind of idea on you?” Bian Shengjian’s head was still hurting, and just quietly added.
“Shut up and go to sleep.”

“Okay,” Lu Shen tucked the quilt towards him, “Good night.”

Bian Shengjian didn’t speak but responded in a low voice.
Lu Shen was about to lie down when he suddenly heard a very slight sniffling sound. 

“…Are you crying?” Lu Shen leaned over to him with his hands propped on the pillow.

“Who’s crying.” Bian Shengjian pulled the quilt to cover his head, but his voice was nasally.
He didn’t know if it was because of Lu Shen’s prodding but he suddenly snapped, “I fucking said to go to sleep!” 

“Third brother.” Lu Shen stretched out a hand in the darkness, gently and slowly landed it on top of Bian Shengjian’s head.
“I’m here, don’t be afraid.”